It will eat you up.

"You can feel anything. All is free for you to feel.

But I guarantee you that if you allow yourself to feel envy and then, to swim in it, that envy will destroy you and the people around you.

Envy is unlike anger.

Envy is not a right wing nor a left wing, it is not on either end of the balancing beam.

Nobody needs it and I can assure you that once you give yourself to it, you will be eaten up"

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Envy . Jealousy . Greed . Desire 

Such strong terms that haunts us in our daily life. 

Ironic isn't it. 

We always want what's best for the ones we love, but very few can be truly sincere to how they really feel.

In fact, we are. We are happy for them, for what they are able to have or what they are able to achieve.

But sometimes, just sometimes, 

"Ooh how I wish it was me.."

Jealousy does kill, I gotta admit.

Some say its a form of motivation. 

Some sort of inspiration to push you further, to achieve more, to have bigger dreams.

But how many can actually take it in - positively?

But I always remind myself;

"When God takes some, He gives some."

Nobody's perfect right?

How much can you compare yourself to anyway?
Love yourself a little more. Don't always put yourself down.

There's a saying,

"一山比一山高" that is - "There's always a mountain higher than another"

So, be thankful for what you have :)
Look more into what you're glad to have.
Life's easier that way.

Stop comparing.

My kind of girls.

If a person comes to your mind while reading this, then she's a keeper.

My favourite girls from the movie GossipGirl ღ

Hands down,
no one does bestfriends better than Blair and Serena.

Every girl has a girl that she would always turn to.

Someone who doesn't needs to be told when you're feeling down. She knows.
Someone who she can pour her heart out to.
Someone who she can borrow her shoulders to cry on.
Someone who she can reach out to, no matter where in the world they are.
Someone who would never get bored listening to her dramas, over and over again.
Someone who would tell you truths that are true, though hurtful, that non other would.
Someone who would feel down, when you are.
Someone who would scream at you for thinking foolishly.
Someone who laugh at your stupidity and craziness.
Someone who doesn't need to remind you that you are missed and loved, as always.
Someone who understands you, more than you understand yourself.
Someone who can't stand getting mad at you.
Someone who knows all your imperfections, but still love you anyway.
Someone who would not judge you.

Someone who would just be there and, LISTEN.

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Since I was younger, I always have trouble making new friends. Girls, in particular.
Very few that I can easily click with.
Maybe it's me, I don't know.

But I guess that is also the reason why I treasure the ones I have now. ALOT.
Friends are easy to find. But to find someone who you can show "All of you" to is hard.
But thankfully, I was blessed with a few Angels.
It may not be many, but just enough.
I know I can be a really royal pain in the ass at times, or most of the time!

So yes, thank you girls!
I hope you know who you are!
You have no idea how much you mean to me ღ

Who you are.

How ironic.

We hate being judged by others, but at the same time we do it to others. By a simple status update or photo, we judge. Instantly.

When reality strikes, ever wondered if you're any better?

Always remember, some people aren't as fortunate as you. 

Born skinny, pretty face or anything dreamed of. 

Still it doesn't give you the right to step on others to lift you higher. 

Let's start this over.

Sudden urge to start blogging, again. God knows how long this urge would last, but hopefully long enough!

Ohh well! Hope I won't bore you here. Just the same old tom, dick and harry blog where I fuss and rant just about everything and anything! So, do leave if you must :)


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It's starting to get harder and harder to find someone who I can spill all my deep thoughts to. Living in such judgmental society, where everything you do is being judged. Good or bad, people will still have something bad to say.

I'm over-thinking all the time. My mind tends to get out of control and cuckoo every now and then. So exhausting, I wish I could put a stop to all of this. Which is one of the reasons why I often keep things to myself. Because even I, myself think I'm out of my mind!

No. I don't want to be like this...